Who likes to suffer?

Suffering is hard. We like to be the comforters, not the ones being comforted. If we are being comforted, then we are in some kind of pain. Emotional, physical – and to all different degrees.

We moved at the end of August and a few days later I felt a pain in my back while I was in the bathroom. It dropped me to my knees. It was instant. For the next 10 days or so I could mostly not walk – mostly crawling and lying in bed with a heat pad. In the night I would wake up screaming with back spasms (like cramps). My poor wife had to endure this… It was excruciating. I’m still not 100%, but made it to church yesterday. I have gone out twice in two weeks. Yesterday was a good day though, and a good night sleep.

I finally did go to Emergency and get an injection that helped a lot. It took away the inflammation.

We are not well off financially, and in fact closer to poverty. We live day by day and week by week. We trust God for our food, drink, business, etc. I am thankful for each game or book idea that I get, and am thankful for each sale and each backer on Kickstarter. It is a process with some light at the end of the tunnel.

I already have photophobia, since ’98, which is sensitivity to bright lights – which gives me migraines sometimes. I also have a heel pain problem, and sensitivities to odours and chemicals. Life is tough. Thankfully, God has given me a positive heart to overcome. I’m not giving up!

Last year I had 2 stents placed for my heart. But through it all, God has been faithful, and I feel and know that he is with me. I read the New Testament and it is filled with the comforting Holy Spirit and with great and precious promises. Faith moves mountains!

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Sometimes I feel like Job and say Why Me?! Sometimes I get mad at God. But God has a plan and we need to trust him – not only in the good times. Job was blessed twice as much in the end, and got to see who his friends really were. If you have not read Job, please read it. It is a wonderful and encouraging true story.

“Casting all your care upon him, for he cares for you.”  1 Peter 5:7

Blessings in Christ, Randall

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Isaiah 53 (700 BC)

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Who has believed our report? and to whom is the arm of the LORD revealed?

2For he shall grow up before him as a tender plant, and as a root out of a dry ground: he has no stately form nor splendor; and when we shall see him, there is no beauty that we should desire him.

3He is despised and rejected of men; a man of sorrows, and acquainted with grief: and we hid as it were our faces from him; he was despised, and we esteemed him not.

4Surely he has borne our griefs, and carried our sorrows: yet we did esteem him stricken, smitten by God, and afflicted.

5But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed.

6All we like sheep have gone astray; we have turned everyone to his own way; and the LORD has laid on him the iniquity of us all.

7He was oppressed, and he was afflicted, yet he opened not his mouth: he is brought as a lamb to the slaughter, and as a sheep before her shearers is dumb, so he opened not his mouth.

8He was taken from prison and from judgment: and who shall declare his generation? for he was cut off out of the land of the living: for the transgression of my people was he stricken.

9And he made his grave with the wicked, and with the rich in his death; because he had done no violence, neither was any deceit in his mouth.

10Yet it pleased the LORD to bruise him; he has put him to grief: when you shall make his soul an offering for sin, he shall see his offspring, he shall prolong his days, and the will of the LORD shall prosper in his hand.

11He shall see the travail of his soul, and shall be satisfied: by his knowledge shall my righteous servant justify many; for he shall bear their iniquities.

12Therefore will I divide him a portion with the great, and he shall divide the spoil with the strong; because he has poured out his soul unto death: and he was numbered with the transgressors; and he bore the sin of many, and made intercession for the transgressors.